I feel bad. Two of my friends hate me and don't even want to tell me why. My other friends feel sorry for me and had to tell me why my other friends hate me and want to help out. I'd just feel worse if I let them, though.

So Alyssa hates me for the below reason. And Victoria hates me because I had told people that she likes Will. But honestly, I thought a bunch of people had already known. If I didn't, then would I have told them? It wasn't like it was random people - they were people that I personally trust.

Looking back on before, when I was still good friends with all of them but I still kept wanting something more to happen, I just get frustrated. I guess I always want something to happen, does that make me a drama queen? I don't want to start the drama, but I just love following it.

Now I'm on the verge of just telling Andrew I like him so the whole thing can blow up. 'Cause after stuff like this reaches its breaking point, then it'll all die down eventually.

I also can't wait until summer - still a few months away but so close I can taste it. Away from most of my friends for pretty much the rest of my life (hopefully). That last sentence just made me feel like a hypocrite, oh well. Plus, hopefully I'll get to chill with my cousins, whom I love very dearly, which is great because I wouldn't be able to escape them if I hated them.

High school is soon. I really just want to leave STA now, leave everything behind, and start over new. I'm only a little bit nervous, which makes me feel weird but still oddly confident.

It's kinda late and my mind's getting dull, so I'm gonna leave it off here. I want to keep going though. Strange.

If people are that silly to hate you over something like that, then maybe you shouldn't be friends with them, you know?

If she can't own up to liking a guy, that's not your problem, it's hers.
» ikimashokie on 2007-03-25 11:55:51

maybe they hate you because your weblog background gives them a headache. just kidding.

life's too short to keep secrets.

cheers,
sank
» thaitanic on 2007-03-26 12:30:03

aww i hope you and your friends make up soon. i Mean, it is a not very valid reason to be mad at you for. i Wasn't mad when one of my bestfriends told my crush i Liked him. In your case, it was just a friend. Not really the guy himself. Hope things get settled soon. i Think it just needs a little talking-talking. :)
» frostbitten on 2007-03-26 12:30:29

It's amazing how fast friendship can change
It used to happen to me a lot...things have changed since then though, sort of. I'd take iki's advice though. Why be friends if they're going to outcast you for ridiculous reasons? Unless you think your friendship is still salvageable, then try some reconciliation. It might be awkward at first, but losing a friend sucks even if there's animosity between you two or not.
» The-Muffin-Man on 2007-03-26 12:37:13

Don't worry.. some people just hate another for no reason. I have this girl who hates me since a few years ago and I still have no idea why and I couldn't be bothered.. =/
I don't know about you but I find being an outcast is nice though sometimes it is very frustrating.. at least you'll know who your real friends are.
» Nuttz on 2007-03-26 01:04:56

Girls in highschool can be just soooooo silly!
» KkaMA67 on 2007-03-26 03:15:34

girl problems...
I think Victoria will forgive you, in time. Just let her alone for a while and then you'll be best of buds again! At least you're not plagued by bf biotches. =}
re:comment--I forgot to say that I'm thinking of bangs. Trim the bottom a couple of inches and get bangs. Sorta lik Caroline in ParaKiss. ;]
» Silver-dot- on 2007-03-26 06:03:46

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